I normally would never stay in the same, country for a whole year.
But it just happened I stayed doing basically nothing materially, yet only transforming from Within.
Some moments, the Ego tend to judge my choices, and these are the moments that has to be Ignored.
I followed my heart, for it to be broken, yet again.
But I had to experience this to kill The identity of rejection and abandonment, that was still residing through me.
But within the most challenging year of Wandering, I was mostly in Stillness.
Meaning Quiet, not talking much, yet, only Writing, as I Transformed into a Writer.
I saw an Instagram page of mine that had somedays 400 likes per photo, become 100 likes.
I saw supporters, that were not supporting me anymore.
I saw daily unfollowers, some days up to 40-50, unfollowers.
Yet, in Stillness, only, my Inner Deeper Writings, came through.
I am Writing within Full synchronization with Life.
It was 3 months ago that I heard the story, that a person was spreading fake rumors, about me.
To my social media as Lightworkers Community, and it became a dirty word of mouth.
Yet, a Mirror for my Inner Transformation.
Since, the Rumors started not one single person came to me, Until, recently my father and mother did, as the Rumors went to my parents.
I was Angry, as I could not understand, why, so many people believed in Rumors, and, that not one single past friend, came to my defense, or messaged to tell me.
On the contrary, they, were spreading rumors too.
This Experience, has shook me to my core, as, it has Changed me Forever Into forgiving others, without receiving an actual sorry.
To Ignore all, that is Ignorant.
To Remain Free, as, a Bird, and Not bound, by someone else, low vibrational thoughts.
To let none touch me, with their limited projections, about themselves.
To Remain, Untouched.
All, that I was writing about, Compassion, Oneness, Love, Peace and Forgiveness,
Came to test me, as Life itself.
I have passed.
As, so I am Eternally Freedom, in this Surrealism Dream.
“You have seen my decent, Now watch my Rising”