This distrust started within my life experiences since childhood.
So as a young kid I was seeing life through the eyes of separation.
I remember a certain event that transpired when I was 9.
Me and my brother, he age 8 at that time, were playing outside, and some kids of the neighborhood (same age as us) began to tease my brother.
I remember this as it was yesterday.
I became so angry that these boys were humiliating and teasing my brother.
That I ran inside our house, I went to the kitchen, I took the biggest cutting knife, and I ran back outside.
I held this huge knife in my right hand and I said to them, if you ever tease my brother again, I will kill you !
This experience turned the boys into scared little puppies and me into a scary little girl.
When I look back at that day, because I sometimes go here as Awareness, I see it as a girl who was so hurt as a young child and she disliked Injustice so much.
I see a scared little girl with distrust in life.
I see a frightened girl who felt like she needed to defend her brother from evil people.
This was how I lived my life for years inside my own prison.
Looking at all of life through the eyes of ego, the duality eyes.
In my own little bubble.
The I am different and separate from you, as so I need to protect me.
Since a child I used to have many distrust with other people.
As a child I wrote all in my diaries, as I could not speak my pain, sufferings, and miseries to others.
Writing is my artistic expression.
Any time I feel this same rage as it comes I tell you, it still comes.
I immediately express myself through writing.
The writing I use as my creative expression which I combine with photography, my own dance, my own singing or illustrations or art of which inspires me.
I like to play with dark and light in my writings, as I like to transcend through my poetry.
It is the thing that gives me the most joy.
I am a Creative Expressionistic Writer.
I Express through my form.