It took us 1/30 hours to get there by boat.
Now one of my biggest mind made fears is the dark blue ocean and huge waves and I also get motion sickness.
So as I was standing at the dock and I saw the grey sky, my mind said do not do it.
However, I decided to take a walk into the direction of my fear and I went for it.
Well yesterday morning the waves were enormous.
I remember shaking and feeling like it was me against the ocean.
At this moment, I felt like I had no other choice than to meditate.
In a deep state of trance I could observe my terrifying thoughts, my distrust in vehicles and the ocean and I knew that this was a fear that came from a prior lifetime.
It was the moment that I could detach from the experience completely, was when I felt no more fear.
I could then feel that I was the ocean, the waves, the boat and even the bodies and souls that were on that boat.
But as soon as I got identified with my fearful thoughts surrounding the ocean, is when I felt completely hopeless.
Even my body went into a paralyzed state, I was feeling as if I was a stone, I could not move. I even thought oh shit, this is the end. And this happened because of my own mind made fear.
But what I learned after, is that this moment was my present from the universe.
As I had to deeply feel and see how this fear has taken over my mind and body.
But within this experience of being paralyzed, I could find my inner stillness and within this stillness I could feel the space between my body, my thoughts and the conscious true self.
The space where being resides is who I really am.
I could see that this person was not the true me, rather an identity that was experiencing a panic attack.
Two friends were guiding me through this, with their touch, light and love, an awareness started to occur and also a deeper sense of love, reliability and trust arose. As my friends have opened a space within me and I have realized that yes I can trust others, something of which I had lost because of some of my previous experiences in life.
Afterwards I felt an immense inner peace, as I knew that consciousness was the force behind it all.
As it was letting me see that spirit is always safe and free.
Stay as spirit, FREE.